“Give me one night where you won’t run away.”

Nico and Jonas meet in the Zwo, the closed ward of a psychiatric hospital, which is probably the least romantic place in the world. Yet still, they are drawn to each other, and something happens. Nico doesn’t handle it well.

The thing is, Jonas is gay. Nico isn’t, of course. Or is he? Let’s say: It’s complicated.
Nico doesn’t like complicated. It’s fine, though. It’s not like they’ll ever see each other again, right?

After his release from the hospital, Nico goes back to his normal life of failing university, getting high with his friends, and listening to death metal. Nothing special. Until his grindcore band “This Will Hurt” has a gig at a local youth center, and he spots a familiar face in the crowd.

Bisexual, bipolar, bilingual: “It Will Hurt” is a love story at a rare intersection.

The author Anya K. Jordan knows what it’s like to be a sexually confused twenty-something in the German underground death metal scenes of the early 2010s, and brings that first-hand experience into this novella. Follow along with Nico as he struggles to confront his feelings for Jonas while grappling with his frustrations with himself, the world, and the fact that one doesn’t quite seem to fit into the other. Take a queer dive into of the World of Death Metal.

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